Haha, no really. Where did you go?

Theme music: "Movies" by Alien Ant Farm
I am: in day two of Denial

I haven’t listened to Alien Ant Farm in a loooooong time. I popped in the CD tonight for some reason and couldn’t stop listening to that “Movies” song. Now I’m obsessed with that song. I must ban it from my I-Pod before it becomes a problem like “Iris.” I love how I try to relate every song to my life. I'm so cute when I do things like that!

My current list of songs banned from my I-Pod for obvious and stupid reasons:
"Ordinary" by Train
"Vindicated" by Dashboard Confessional (I honestly CAN NOT listen to this song)
“I’m only happy when it rains” by Garbage
“Biggest Mistake of your life” by New Found Glory
“Movies” by Alien Ant Farm
“Iris” by the Goo Goo Dolls
“Truth of my youth” by New Found Glory
“Every me and Every you” by Placebo“Staring at the sun” by Offspring

The Village was interesting. Boy, was that movie not what I expected. I really can't make up my mind whether I liked it or despised it. It was kind of like "Can't Hardly Wait" in the sense where it was this wonderful mixture of awesome and aweful. Goodness am I acutally comparing a teeny bopper movie to a M. Night movie? Heaven forbid!!!

You can’t really hate a movie that is written by the same man who did “Signs” and “Sixth Sense” or can you?? ::dun dun duuuuun::

Before I can tell about how awesome the screening was I must give you a background story: So when “Signs” first came out a group of people who go to my church went to go see it on opening night. So everything was going great and then the scene where M. Night Shyamalan (the director) makes his first appearance comes up. This guy in the group, Hunter, stands up, in the middle of the movie, points at the screen and says “THAT’S HIM!! THAT’S THE DIRECTOR!!” Of course, the rest of the church group is horribly embarrassed. Now I just heard about this story a few weeks ago and when it was told to me I just could not stop laughing. Ever since then I have teased Hunter like mad! Naturally, he denies screaming it but if you knew Hunter then you know he would do a great thing like that.

So knowing this I tell Andrew that we have to re-enact this at tonight’s showing. We talked about how we were going to do it. We’d stand up at the same time and scream,

“THAT’S HIM!! THAT’S THE DIRECTOR.”

Unfortunately, they never showed a clear shot of him. All you got was his stupid reflection so about 30 seconds after the scene cut Andrew stood up and shook his finger at the screen. No one really got it. Darn.

I showed off my tattoo to a few people at work. Lol, the best person was Amanda.

Me: Hey check this out! ::shows tattoo::
Amanda: Oh My GOD!! That’s awesome!
Me: Yeah I know!
Amanda: It’s so beautiful! ::gets closer and starts rubbing it.
Me: ::clenches face in agony::
Amanda: I can’t believe how great it looks. ::continues to pet the tattoo::
Me: Yeah ::in more agony::
Amanda: ooo ::still petting::
Me: AHHH!! By the way my skin is raw back there.
Amanda: Ooo. I’m so sorry. Did I hurt you?

Yeah, as if that wasn’t enough, this guy from church, Kevin, decided to get my attention by patting me on the back which would have been fine if my skin wasn’t pratically falling off back there.

It’s raining again. How natural. The forecast calls for rain almost all weekend. Is this a sign of things to come? Just to warn you all, the Lord might be attempting to drown me.

Oh man, today I really crapped things up. Apparently I’ve gotten to the point where I don’t say things in my mind anymore, I just spit them out like some kind of cracked up crack head, which would be fine if I didn’t do that at work. I was going to blame it on some kind of early turrets syndrome but I don’t think I could get away with that excuse. Darn.

Surprise

So I have a surprise for all my wonderful readers; I am getting a tattoo tomorrow!! I will let you all know how it goes. Yay for pain!

Trainspotting moments

"I don't feel the sickness yet, but it's in the post. That's for sure. I'm in the junkie limbo at the moment. Too ill to sleep. Too tired to stay awake, but the sickness is on its way. Sweat, chills, nausea. Pain and craving. A need like nothing else I've ever known will soon take hold of me. It's on its way."

-"Rent Boy" in Trainspotting

Quotes from a night with Hannah and Natalie

"Cold Play will do it just because they like the feel of money against their bare naked skin." -Laura

"Why can't I be stephen speilburg's best friend." -Laura

Little girl: Here's a pendant that has absolutly nothing to do with this movie.
Lancelot: Thank You. I'll hock this for needle drugs!

-Laura's more entertaining version of "King Arthur"

Dude, I need to learn to not check my email on other people's computers

HOLY CRAP!! I just realized that I checked my email on another person's a few days ago and didn't log out. Gee wiz I seem to keep doing really stupid things...grrrrrrrrr.

Weird boy with headphones

Stop me if I've told you this story:

So on Wednesday I left youth seeking some sort of food for consumption and headed for the McDonalds on Battlefield. Everything was going as usual; my food was dripping grease through the bag, I had to repeat my order twice to the lady, and the smell of burnt fries was drifting through the air. Then, as I went to fill my cup up with orange soda, a 16-year-old boy popped out of nowhere. He began to compliment my purse and tell me that he planned to become a fashion designer and design clothes just like my purse. I was nice and told him that, that was awesome. I proceeded to walk out the door when I noticed that he was following me. He stopped me right as I was about to walk out and asked me who sung the song was that playing over the loud speaker at that exact moment. I said
"I'm not sure." and pushed the door open. He walked after me as he said
"Yeah, it's Life House. They're Christian you know. Are you a Christian because I am?" I responded that I was and quickened my pace to my car. He kept speaking, "Well that's cool. I really hate Springfield because they're are all these people who say they're Christians but they really aren't and that makes me mad. Everyone judges you, you know? I can't stand that. I love Christ and I don't know how anyone could ever judge someone if they love Christ. You know what else I hate? I hate fake Christians. You're probably a fake Christian, most of the people in Springfield are. [ at this point I am in my car. My door is open and my keys are in the ignition but I can't leave because he is in the way. I decided to be nice and listen to his rant about God] I think everyone should spend an eternity in Hell because most people deserve that. I mean you probably should be there too. I don't think I would be there because I am spreading the world of God. [ He continues like this for another 5 minutes. I interrupt him at one point, where he is mis-quoting the bible, to say...]
"I'm sorry, but I have to get back to my church group."
He begins again with his rant..."Oh, haha, what church do you go to?"
"Oak Grove Assembly of God. It's a really awesome place."
"Wow. Do you like the people in your group?"
"Yeah. They're all really nice."
"I bet some of them are fake and very stuck up. That's how it is with all church groups. You think they're going to be nice but then they gang up on you and exclude you. I probably shouldn't go to your church because I'd just find fake people and I can't stand fake Christians. You're a fake Christian too, you know? I bet you're going to go off to your fake group and tell them about this freak that followed you to your car and told you about Jesus."
No kidding...this is what I said, "Probably."
"You must think I'm pretty weird following you out to your car."
"Well.."
"But I'm not. I'm just trying to tell you about God and get you to change your ways."
"Well, I really have to go because it's getting late and..."
"And God forgives us. He'll forgive you too."
"Yeah, so..."
I am seriously turning my car at this point. My lights are on my stereo is blasting and he is still talking about how evil I am. Finally, I tell him "thank you" and shut the door. I drove out of that parking lot so fast that I could smell burnt rubber. I got half way to Ben's house and realized how hilarious the whole situation was. I couldn't stop laughing. That whole situation just made my night 10 times more interesting.

Popping the bubble

After doing Lunch with Natalie and Hannah, I still feel sick. I'm just going to do what I do most of the time; put on my best facade and immerse myself in Kool-aid.

Yay for facades!

Short post

Song of the moment: "What if" by Creed
I am: not in the mood

I don't know if a lack of sleep is causing serious problems or what but I just can't seem to keep my mind on one subject.

Weeeeeird

Work was fun. Hehehe silly newbies...they have problems with everything. I think I could make millions by recording the stupid things they do and passing it off as a reality show.

Bumps in the night

Stuck in my head: "Tainted Love" by Soft Cell
I am: freakin out

It starts out to be a rockin night. You end up closing the theater faster then expected, you borrowed an awesome CD from one of the Assistant Managers, and you just read the funniest email on earth. Then you hear it...the scratching, the moaning, the chirping. THERE IS SOME KIND OF ANIMAL IN OUR ATTIC AND IT IS GOING TO EAT ME. SAVE ME!! Oh God, I can picture it now. It's probably some kind of hairy-mutant Daddy-Long-Legs. It's pissed because I killed its sister. I know it. Darn me and my incessant need to kill all bugs that come within 5 feet of me!

I guess Hannah is encountering the same problem tonight:

Nights like this are almost enough to make me want to move out, and get an apartment, where everything that is capable of making suspicious noises in the night is within sight of me. Before this night is over, I'll very likely spot a mylar balloon demon or a creepy tentacle demon on the ceiling again. I'm freaking myself out just sitting here, but at least I didn't make it worse by watching 2001: A Space Odyssey before bed.

Nice guys don't always finish last

Theme Music: "Nice guys finish last" by Green Day
I am: Shocked

If you don't know me you probably, don't realize that I try to go out of my way to help people. If I see someone, I know crying on the side of the road I'm going to walk over and ask if they need to talk. It's just something I do. Well, after church on Wednesday I noticed one of my fellow church mates running out of our usual hangout, crying. I followed her to her car and asked her what was going on. At first she was hesitant. She just shook her head a few times. Being the o' so very annoying person that I am, I pressed on to get her to open up. We only talked for about 10 minutes before she reached for her phone and said she needed to call someone. I left to give her some privacy.

I was shocked yesterday when she drove up to my work and handed me a "Thank You" card in which she apologized for being rude and thanked me for checking on her. I was really "wowed" by this. I mean, I do nice things all the time but no one really ever...gives me a card! They usually just blow it off as me just being me. Dude, it was so awesome!! I've covered people's shifts, bought people random gifts, and sat with people for HOURS while they cry their eyes out to me but I've NEVER gotten anything in return.

I really needed that card believe it or not (not in a material sense). See, a few days ago I was thinking that all this niceness was pointless because no one really seemed to notice or care. Now I know that people do want you to go the extra mile.

Believe it or not, I keep doubting that the card was meant for me. I mean someone else was out there for a good hour with her when I only spent 10 minutes with her. I really do hope that talking to me helped her though.

Way better than Ted and Bill's excellent adventure

Stuck in my head: "Ground on Down" by Ben Harper
I am: Rockin!

Today was excellent! I finished all of the chores, made my bed, and still had enough time to drop by Caveman Comics, Borders, Barns and Noble, and Merlin Books! How awesome is that? Sure I didn't buy anything at those places...but man, it was fun looking around. I'm sure the clerks just loved how I loitered around their stores for a hour. Tehehe.

Thanks to Justin, I have now acquired a taste for Ben Harper's music. I've been listening to "Ground on Down" all day. Something about that song just makes me want to get up and rock out!

Dude, I've been getting the greatest compliments lately!! A few days ago, some guy said I have the most awesome shirts and then today someone said that my eye make-up looked really great! There's nothing like a compliment to make you're day rock even more!!

Not only that but I'm almost finished with my little black journal! I have a whole year's worth of fun adventures in it!! I know that when Amanda read it she couldn't stop laughing. She said that when I die I have to leave it to her so that she can get it published. Yeah, it's really not that funny.

Take a hint people

I'm turning off my cell phone for a few days...maybe more. There are reasons but none interesting enough to share.

Well Bugger!

Theme Song: "Staring at the Sun" by Offspring
I am: waiting

So, I was driving home tonight (more like today) and I got this horrible feeling that maybe my life is just that; driving down James River Freeway listening to Incubus while packed into a lonely and dark car. Dude, it freaked me out. I started hyperventilating and screaming. Then I remembered that I now have the awesome ability to make pudding cookies and then realized that, that's all one really needs in life.

Good times...good times.

I haven't heard from Linzy in a while. I am beginning to worry. Usually she gives me a random call by now but nope. Nothin'. I might give her a call tomorrow and she what she's up to. I love her voice messages! They're almost as good as Hannah's.

"Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaura. [pause] yeah this is Linzy [pause] ::breath:: [pause] so give me a call [pause]. Yeah.”

I ought to leave a really long message on her voice mail just to annoy the heck out of her. Tehehe, there's nothing more entertaining then seeing Linzy annoyed.

I've decided that Wednesday is going to be my day. Yes, I have decided! Hannah doesn't know it but I will be invading her house for various reasons. One of which is to see this horrible monster that seems to live in her kitchen. The other so that she can calm me down after I have a mental break down.

On Wednesday, I will break out the super hero outfit and impress all!! "Boo yaw" and here's why: I'm really sick of the crap that's been going on lately with some of the people that I hang out with and it's going to stop one way or another. I'm taking control of the situation if it's the last thing I do. I'm sick of being ignored and given the cold shoulder. Believe it or not, I do exist!!! I’m sick of people conforming for the stupidest of reasons. WHY CAN’T YOU JUST REBEL! Darn all those who conform, darn them all! But, most of all, I’m sick of being treated like crap!!

I have the sudden urge to draw myself as a super hero. Yay for super heroes!!

Sleepy time

I am prepared for a 10 hour nap! I've worked my butt off all weekend and now I am prepare to either hang out with my peeps or just plop into bed. If someone doesn't call me quick they're going to have to wake me up. ::sigh:: I love my pillow.

I MUST NOT GIVE INTO THE SLEEP!!

Fudge!

Ack, today was just not my day.

This morning we were swamped by a hundred-some evil munchkins. I hate tiny children whose parents have no control over them. But it’s fine...that happens when you work at a movie theater. Then some projector brain-wrapped and the movie was stopped. Then we received a delivery from Regal, that I didn't enter it into the computer. Then when I was told to enter it, I asked about a dozen annoying questions and drove the rest of the managers nuts. THEN I thought I was supposed to leave at 7pm when I was REALLY supposed to leave at 6pm. To make everything 10 times worse I rang up an order so horribly wrong that one of the managers was going nuts trying to figure out what I had done. When she called to tell me what I had done all I wanted to do was apologize a million times but the few “I’m sorry-s” that I got out didn’t seem to help.

Let’s just say that the word "fudge" was used a lot today. Its days like this that make me feel like crap all the time. Dude, I feel so incompetent. Uck.

READY

Currently Playing: Moonlight Sonata
I am: Ready

The employee meeting is Thur. and I am all set! I can't wait! I have this awesome outfit picked out (gosh I hope they let me wear it). It's this really cute black tank with my flame comfy pants and then a white-collar shirt to go over the tank. Then to top it all off I have this uber cute tie! I think I just spent 15 mins looking for my comfy pants. I went running around the house screaming

"COMFY PANTS COME BACK TO ME!"

You must understand that I cannot live without those pants!! THEY ARE THE ESSENCE OF COMFY!

Just paint me pink and call me "Ducky"

Everything seems to be moving in slow motion now and not in a good way.

To start things off I think that Ashley and I’s friendship is sinking into the ground like a Hummer in Egyptian quicksand. We aren’t returning each other’s calls, we haven’t hung out in what feels like a year, and IT SUCKS! I’m highly ticked because Ashley rocks my face off and she’s my Best Friend and privy to information that could be useful in blackmailing me (haha…no, but really she could destroy me). I have a plan though. I’m going to salvage it by calling her at least three times this week and making conversation with her even if that conversation has to be about soured milk! Then next week I will email her everyday until she has had her fill of me. It will be marvelous.

Then church pretty much blew my mind. I had one of those horrible revelations right after the alter call had finished. I have the worst timing when it comes to revelations.

Haha, all you cat haters will be glad to hear that I almost ran over a feline the other night. It scared the living crap out of me. I was on the phone to...only-God-knows-who…when I see these two yellow eyes pop out of nowhere in front of my car. I flipped out and did one of those crazy swerves, that you only see in the movies, just in time to miss the stupid cat. I think I actually screamed into the phone. I hope that person’s eardrums are ok. At least I got some amusement out of the experience.

On a final “bad day” note:

I think I’ve lost something but I’m not quite sure what.

and when I say “lost” I mean in a metaphorical way.

It’s weird. I can feel myself becoming more and more dull by the second. Blah.

I've got to stop talking in my sleep

I think Ashley just called me but I'm not sure if that was a dream or what. Look, I went to bed at like 3:30 (yay for closing shifts!)! I remember hearing the Scooby Doo theme song (my ring tone) and talking to someone who sounded a lot like Ashley. I don't even know what we talked about. Wow, that's pretty bad.

I hung out with Nat and Hannah the other night and I brought along my pretty red journal to make notes of interesting events. I thought I'd share a few of the notes I made:

8:23 pm
Natalie warns me of the state her room is in. I am fearful to enter. I may faint. I think I should make her a sign that says "Insert Disclaimer here" for above her door.

8:24 pm
Oh the horrors!

8:37 pm
Nat and I have drawn attention to Springfield's ant problem. Our plans are to decrease the population by feeding them concentrated Mountain Dew. Only she and I know it's awesome killing power.

8:53 pm
Discovered that Hannah doesn't know how to cook Toast. I will pray for her soul.

8:56 pm
My first child will be named "The Cheat" (not to be confused with "The Hannah") and his/her first word shall be "Douglas."

9:15 pm
The word "Addendum" has been used too much. I have plans to approach an employee tomorrow and say "An Addendum to my list before..."
A fight has broken out between the friends. They claim that their e-boyfriend is e-cheating. This is something to post about in my blog.

9:20 pm
The group is restless. Somehow, I got sucked into driving them all to Barns and Noble. Hahaha, I will make them listen to Cadet.

9:30 pm
Almost smash Hannah's hand in the car window. Sadly funny.

Laura's Fury

I must say that I have never been so pissed off in my entire life.

I’m pretty sure that all my friends know better than to talk down to me not because they respect me but because they know how bad my temper is and fear my fury. Just ask Tamila or even Natalie. In fact, Ashley knows better then most because she and I recently had it out a month or two ago when we had a little spat.

I believe the last time someone talked down to me; I looked them straight in the eye and in the coldest tone ever said,

“Excuse me! Do not take that tone with me! If you have a problem I suggest you get over it and quick.”

(This caught the person off guard because I’m usually pretty nice and cheery.) Ha ha, the look on their face was priceless.

Tonight was the first time that I was talked down to and somehow managed to bite my tongue instead of breaking loose. I just can’t stand it when people take that tone with you as if you were three or just plain stupid! No one has the right to treat me like that!! I’m a person so talk to me as if I were one! I’m sorry if you think that you have the right to degrade people. You really don’t! I don’t care whom you are but if you disrespect I will not stand for it.

The ONLY reason I did not tear into this person is because there were several people around and it was just not worth the effort. I’m so ticked about it though.

I was so mad that I ended up not saying anything until I reached Becca who cooled me down a bit.

Thank GOD FOR BECCA.

A new All Time Low

Theme Music: "Barlow Girl" by [SuperChick]
I am: in a somewhat Comatose state

It’s bad enough that I’m a girl who spends ¼ of her paycheck on PS2 games but last night, or should I say this morning I became one of the saddest girls on earth.

So after I figured out that it is impossible to beat Final Fantasy X in 4 hours, I attempted to go to sleep. It was at 4:30am that I hit this “all time low.”

There I was lying in bed trying to decide if I wanted to invest in a set of Final Fantasy X action figures or even buy FFX t-shirt.

When I realized that I was becoming some sort of FF geek I started to freak out. Memories of Linzy spending hours on her PS1, dehydrated with massive bags under her eyes, as she tried to beat FF IX, flashed through my mind. Those were some good times. Linzy and I…sitting around the TV…. screaming because she kept dying during a battle. Good times…I AM NOT OBSESSED DARN IT! I can stop playing anytime I want to. I just want to finish the game first.

::sigh:: you know you’re obsessed when you end up screaming at inanimate objects. I was so frustrated with how long it was taking me to beat each level that I ended up shouting, “Stop crying Yuna [FFX character]! Ya FREAK OF NATURE!! JUST SHUT UP AN USE THE DARN AEON TO BEAT SIN!” or “Be a man Tidus! RUN AWAY!!”

It’s gotten to the point where I think about game strategies constantly. After church when all the college people had gotten together, my mind just kept wondering (which I had plenty of time to do since I was HORRIBLE BORED!!!). I kept thinking about how I need to finish those last levels in Price of Persia and how I wasn’t sure if I saved my game last time I played it (uck, I don’t think I did).

To top everything off, there is some kind of freaky dog ghost running around our house. I saw it for the first time last night as I was walking up the stairs. No joke; it looked like the evil dog from Harry Potter: POA!! I started flipping out!!!! Then I realized it was 1am and I was over exhausted. Then today I heading out the back door and something ran by me. The rational side of me would just say that it was one of the dogs but both of them were already outside. I’m going to guess that Hannah’s tentacle ghost has somehow made its way over here (lol).

Dude, I think I just heard something clawing at the ceiling and I’m pretty sure that it wasn’t the usual ghost that haunts my room. Darn you Hannah! I know this is your fault!