Too young to leave

Too young to leave
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A Tried Expression

A Tried Expression
Originally uploaded by HotsauceJane

"We know that we live in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit. 14And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. 15If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in him and he in God. 16And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.
God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him."

1 John 4:13-16

Something about Static

They are playing some song by Quad City DJ's at Cassils. Great.

Clutching to a root of familiarity

Counterfeit Pen
Originally uploaded by HotsauceJane

"What are the roots that clutch, what branches grow
Out of this stony rubbish? Son of man,
You cannot say, or guess, for you know only
A heap of broken images, where the sun beats,
And the dead tree gives no shelter, the cricket no relief,
And the dry stone no sound of water."
- TS Eliot "The Wasteland"

Voicemail and Movie Quote Game Scores

Week One Quote:
"We won't need eyes where we're going!"- Event Horizon

Week Two:
"Don't touch that please, your primitive intellect wouldn't understand things with alloys and compositions and things with... molecular structures. "- Army of Darkness

Week Three:
"I bought a house....it's on the lake"- Lake House
BONUS QUESTION:
What quote from that movie's trailer drove the entire staff of the Springfield 8 nuts?
Answer: "Oh you're gonna think I'm crazy!"

Week Four (we are currently on this quote):
"Water...cold..."
BONUS QUESTION:
Who sent me a text message with those exact words at midnight?

Kevin: 0
Ben H.: 1
Nicole: 0
Ashley H.: 0
Eryn: 1
Natalie: 1
Becca: 1
My Mother: -1
My Father: 0
Andrew: -2 (see explanation below)

0 points will be awarded for NO GUESS
-1 point will be awarded for an incorrect guess
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1. Guessing GHOST BUSTERS 2: Mystery of the Ooze on the quote that was CLEARLY Lake House
2. Trying to convince me that they actually SAID that quote in Ghost Busters 2

...Andrew for this you have received -2 points and may God have mercy on your soul.

Hard Luck in a Red Kimono

Hard Luck in a Red Kimono
Originally uploaded by HotsauceJane

For my final series in my Medium Format class I chose to do somewhat of a photo documentary on the kids I work with. I've never felt so attached to a series of photos before. It's strange.

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

Is it possible to be friends with someone you don't have any respect for? This question has been bugging me a lot lately. I feel like, as a Christian, I struggle with knowing that I need to love the people around me but can I feel love for someone whose life disgusts me, who I don't trust, whose personal integrity is a joke? I mean, how can I be FORCED to respect someone. I don't know.

"Respect is an assumption of good faith and competence in another person or in the whole of oneself. Depth of integrity, trust, complementary moral values, and skill are necessary components."-wikipedia


Romans 12:10
"Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves."

This week's scores!

As some of you might know, I changed my voice mail so that now it is LAURA'S VOICE MAIL AND MOVIE QUOTE GAME!!!

Last week's quote:
"We won't need EYES where we're going!"

Answer:
EVENT HORIZON!

Scoreboard:

Eryn C.- 1
Ben H.- 1
My mother- -1
Nicole A.- 0

"A photograph is a secret about a secret. The more it tells you the less you know"

"Judgment rarely marked her work; only an eagle's eye for composition and for the perfect moment – as well as her sympathy for people she likely saw, oddly given her background, as fellow outsiders."

"July 1971, Arbus committed suicide in Greenwich Village at the age of 48 by ingesting a large quantity of barbiturates and then slashing her wrists. Rumor held that she photographed her suicide, but no photos were discovered."

Put it on my tab, good sir!

iTunes: "The Only Living Boy in New York" by Simon and Garfunkel

It's good to know that all that money I spent at Cassil's Coffee in an attempt to see and/or talk to hot coffee boy, resulted in nothing except a significant decrease in my bank account. If he still worked there (a little bird told me that he quit this past week) then maybe it would have been worth it, but noooooo. Nadda. Oh but I shall dream of that wonderful head of hair ::sigh::...

Bruce Campbell vs Jack Bauer

I dare propose this ever important, life-changing question:

Jack Bauer and Bruce Campbell; who would be able to save us in the ever imminent zombie apocalypse?

People, I present to you the facts:

Jack Bauer:
-HE FREAKIN' SHOT SOME GUY'S WIFE IN THE LEG, RAN INTO A ROOM FILLED WITH NERVE GAS, AND HIJACKED A PLANE TO SAVE AMERICA!! That's pretty hardcore! Not to mention any man who can defeat terrorists that many times is clearly capable of defending us against a horde of undead.

Bruce Campbell
-The man cut off his own hand and replaced it with a chainsaw....whoa. That...is....awesome. Need I mention he defeated an ARMY OF DARKNESS?! Who could ask for more?

Circumstances under which I would eat a baby

1. It was a baby CHOCOLATE bar or if the baby was made of chocolate
2. Jesus or Bruce Campbell told me to do it

Facebook Smiles

At some point I became addicted to facebook. I don't even know how it happened. I spend way too much time on it.....it's like a drug. Facebook has these cool new applications that you can add, one of which being HONESTY BOX. It's this nice little box that you put on your "profile" in which people post anonymous comments about you. To be completely honest, I only put it on there because in order to comment on OTHER people (in THEIR honesty box) you have to have the application yourself.

I never really liked the idea of being critiqued in secret or laying out a door mat that says "Annonymously tell me things that you hate about me!". I always meant to remove the application but I forgot. By chance, I checked it today.

This is what I found:
(From a boy)
"This'll sound really weird. I barely knew you at all in high school. A mutual friend said something about you wanting me to ask you to a dance or something like that. I said no, but ended up regretting it because the few interactions I had with you I realized that you were cute and funny. This'll torture you I'm sure, hah hah. But really, this is actually creepy of me, because I haven't even spoken to you since high school."

The nice thing about HONESTY BOX is that you can respond to that person. Here is what I said:
"Creepy? Nah! One time Linzy, Tamila, and I drove to some guy's house to grab grass from it because Linzy was obsessed with him. Now THAT'S creepy. Good times...good times.

Thanks for the compliment."

I have a vague idea of who it is just because only FRIENDS who have the Honesty Box application can comment and I'm pretty sure I know who it was. I am flattered and it makes me smile.

It's always cloudy when you look into the past

iTunes: The Take Over, Break's Over by Fallout Boy
I am: bored out of my mind

I am not apologizing for listening to Fallout boy. I like their music and I could care less if everyone thinks they're douchebags.

My trip to see my sister is over and I regret not staying longer. I only get to see her approximately twice a year (Christmas and maybe Thanksgiving) so you can only image how exited I was to have this little trip to see her. I am going to see if I can make plans to come and see her over Spring Break or something. I'm sure she's glad to finally have me out of her hair. I ate a significant amount of her Easy Mac and Snicker Bars. I think I'm going to order some and send them to her as a thank you.

I am one of those people who, when I walk into a restaurant I pick the strangest thing on the menu and try it. This amazed my sister. Fried oysters, Corn Nuggets, Squid Sushi, Japansese Pickle Sushi, among other various things are what I have tried on this trip. I forced my sister to try all these things as well. It worked out about 80% of the time. The Squid Sushi was.....rubbery and not that good and the Pickle Sushi was good but not very flavorful. The Corn Nuggets were AMAZING and my sister is in love with the Fried Oysters.

I should have brought my copy of Julius Caesar but unfortunately I brought Chuck Palahniuk's Haunted. Reading the first few chapters of that book has been a very traumatic experience for me. It is a rare occasion that I actually want to THROW AWAY or even GIVE AWAY a book I had bought for myself but I do not think I can finish this book. Things getting stuck in sexual organs, people biting through their own large intestines, ripping a child from a mother's womb and stewing it and feeding it to her, people eating their own extremities, assassination through the art of foot massage, I could go on and on. It's just too much. Mr. Palahniuk is a wonderful writer but I just can't stomach it.

It appears that my once beautiful tan has faded and I am back to my disgusting pastiness.

This is what happens in Atlanta

This being the first time I had ridden a plane by myself, one can only imagine who stressed I was. There was always the fear of my plane being delayed or even worse, the gate changing at the last moment. So as I sat in the Atlanta airport for four hours I gave myself an ulcer worrying about the weather getting progressively worse. Thankfully the clouds disappeared and I was able to fly out on time.

I was able to take this shot while I waited those amazing four hours.

11:30am in the Atlanta Airport

He is wearing a Goosebumps t-shirt; authentically vintage. He reminds me of a past crush. It’s the way his hair is cut, it’s the way he crosses his legs, it's the awkward way he sits there and it’s his plaid green shorts. His slight 5 o’clock shadow brings attention to his defined jaw line. He is eating. He is eating Burger King of all things. I hope he is on my flight. I imagine the awkwardness that might ensue if he has the seat next to me. Will I stare at him? Will we make small talk? I remember a line from Pulp Fiction that refers small talk.

He has a macbook and a guitar case.

I hope we randomly meet in Gulfport. Maybe we will bump into each other while fishing for our suitcases at baggage claim. Maybe we will awkwardly make eye contact and smile in that way that reminds me of indie romance flicks.

Life should be like a Jane Austen Novel

Elizabeth was much too embarrassed to say a word. After a short pause, her companion added, “You are too generous to trifle with me. If your feelings are still what they were last April, tell me so at once. My affections and wishes are unchanged, but one word from you will silence me on this subject forever.” Elizabeth feeling all the more than common awkwardness and anxiety of his situation, now forced herself to speak; and immediately, though not very fluently, gave him to understand, that her sentiments had undergone so material a change, since the period to which he alluded, as to make her receive with gratitude and pleasure, his present assurances.

Suffocating Cloud

Suffocating Cloud
Originally uploaded by HotsauceJane.

A storm is coming. I can feel it.

I think I'm going to puke.

Looks like I'm not the only one who doesn't update

Postsecret has skipped it's Sunday update. Frank enabled comments this week and it looks like the general public is upset that they haven't gotten their weekly dose of other people's secrets. It's actually quite funny.