hoe...

Hm. My emotional high seems to be dwindling. Dang. I should pop in "Just Friends" and drool over Ryan Reynolds for a bit.

BAMF

BAMF
Originally uploaded by HotsauceJane.

Mia: Don't you hate that?

Vincent: What?

Mia: Uncomfortable silences. Why do we feel it's necessary to yak about bull in order to be comfortable?

Vincent: I don't know. That's a good question.

Mia: That's when you know you've found somebody special. When you can just shut up for a minute and comfortably enjoy the silence.

--Pulp Fiction

Is there some kind of support group I can join for this?

Sam: I had a big crush on Scarlett Johansson before she did The Island
Me: lol
Sam: But ever since I saw that...meh. hehe
Me: ever since she hit rock bottom she just hasn't been as hot
Me: lol
Sam: lol
Sam: Well
Sam: She was just so amazing in A Love Song for Bobby Long and Lost in Translation
Sam: I really thought she looked like the most talented actress who's ever lived
Sam: But then she sold out
Me: that whore
Sam: That's the third time you've called someone a whore tonight. Such anger!
Sam: I like it.
Me: I seem to have a problem NOT using that word
Me: Let's see who I've called a whore tonight: My boss (she giggled when I called her it), most of my fellow management staff (they too enjoyed it), Michael, Ben, and Scarlett Johansson
Sam: That's so mean!
Sam: You whore.
Sam: For some reason I love the word whore. I have no idea why.
Me: It rolls off the tongue and into the hearts of millions. Mmm whore...

On a side note: I only called Michael and Ben whores because...

Sam: Well, Michael and Ben were supposed to call me sometime tonight...but it doesn't look like that's going to happen.
Me: Those whores...

I can't wait for Sunday Church!!

Me: do you think zombies ever get thirsty?
Me: I mean, they're hungry all the freakin' time!
Lindsay: heh
Lindsay: maybe not, because they get some blood?..
Me: ew
Lindsay: yeah
Me: but you'd think that blood alone wouldn't be able to hydrate them
Lindsay: they dont need it though..
Lindsay: theyre zombies.
Me: yeah but they "need" to eat flesh
Me: why is that, by the way?
Me: why exactly are undead creatures hungry?
Lindsay: theyre jealous of how alive they are..
Lindsay: so theyre like."oh my gosh! they look so goood!"
Lindsay: so they eat them
Me: lol
Me: it is all making sense now
Lindsay: yess
Me: we should convert some zombies to Christianity
Me: then they could be hungry for christ
Lindsay: ohh maybe
Lindsay: problem though..
Lindsay: zombies dont exsist.
Me: psh
Me: next you're going to tell me that leprechauns don't exist

Now each visitor shall confess, the sad valley's restlessness

Now each visitor shall confess, the sad valley's restlessness
Originally uploaded by HotsauceJane.

I can fly like a bird in the sky

I can fly like a bird in the sky
Originally uploaded by HotsauceJane.

iTunes: "Volcano" by Damien Rice


I seem to be depressed. Blah. Thought you should know.

The lunatic, the lover, and the poet

The lunatic, the lover, and the poet
Originally uploaded by HotsauceJane.

Things are confusing right now.

Psalm 139

7-12 "Is there anyplace I can go to avoid your Spirit?
to be out of your sight?
If I climb to the sky, you're there!
If I go underground, you're there!
If I flew on morning's wings
to the far western horizon,
You'd find me in a minute—
you're already there waiting!
Then I said to myself, "Oh, he even sees me in the dark!
At night I'm immersed in the light!"
It's a fact: darkness isn't dark to you;
night and day, darkness and light, they're all the same to you."

Fact 3 of 101 facts you probably didn't know about me

iTunes: "Fighting For My Love" by Nil Lara
I am: a red head

When I'm talking on the phone to people, I tend to pace

It's oh so very true. I can't seem to stay put. It's even worse when I'm talking to someone whom I'm extremely nervous talking to. In that case, I tend to venture around my house, covering almost every square inch. Sometimes I make my way outside and end up walking all over my neighborhood just because I can't sit still. There you go. Another fun fact for the day.

Fact 2 of 101 tiny things you might not know about me

iTunes: "My Evil Plan To Save The World" by Five Iron Frenzy
I am: "a scantily clad research scientist with the soul of a mighty warrior" (thank you THEY FIGHT CRIME)

I have decided to randomly post tiny facts about myself (how egocentric right?) until I either..
1. Make it all the way to 101 facts
or
2. Get bored with this idea which is very likely

Anyway, on with the fact for today:

I enjoy sappy, overly happy music. It's a sickness really.

I'll admit it. I enjoy bands like Hellogoodbye and Superchick. I'll even go as far as to say that I am in love with Five Iron Frenzy. There is something wildly addictive these bands. Their upbeat attitudes? Their catchy tunes? Their very refreshing positive music? Who knows what the reason might be. All I know is that I will continue to listen to this cheesey, happy music until I die.

I had a conversation with Becca the other day in which I openly revealed that when I am utterly depressed, I put in some SuperChick and everything seems to be ok. She found this strange. She said, "You know most people throw some crappy EMO music into the car CD player when their feeling miserable." Psh! I am not "most people".

Reality check on cannibals, hobos, and zombies

11:58 PM
Andrew: boobs
Me: boobs
Andrew: i find it's a very good conversation starter
Me: true dat true dat
Me: do I sound cooler when I use "dat"
Andrew: a little
Me: street lingo makes me feel awesome

Me: what do you think cannibals snack on?
Me: flesh chips?
Me: Dehydrated flesh chips?
Andrew: gross
Andrew: and yes, i would think so
Me: or do you think they keep a bucket of fingers around the house
Me: kind of like a bucket of chicken
Me: only it's fingers
Andrew: i guess we should befriend some cannibals and hang out at their pad to study them more closely
Me: yes
Me: this sounds like a very excellent plan
Me:sometimes I wonder if Justin fights back cannibalistic urges
Me: he gets that "look" in his eyes
Andrew: he does have a hairy chest
Me: What does having a hairy chest have to do with cannibals?
Andrew: think about it
::LONG PAUSE::
Me: nope, I'm still confused
Andrew: well, i can't explain it to you then
Andrew: either you get it or you get it
Andrew: or i'm just messing with you
Me: my head hurts
Andrew: as well it should
Me: If you touch a hobo do you have to get a tetanus shot?
Me: or does that only apply to zombies?
Andrew: i don't know, but either way, Scott and I are covered
Me: Good to know

That you have but slumbered here

That you have but slumbered here
Originally uploaded by HotsauceJane.

This picture looks 10 times better when you see it in it's full size but you all will have to deal with what you can get.

A friend of mine took me out to this really nifty abandoned trailer park that she and another friend had found completely on accident. It was literally as if this giant area what hit with some sort of nature bomb. Cement steps and foundations were left behind but hidden by vines and weeds.

"The eye of man hath not heard, the ear of man hath not seen, man’s hand is not able to taste, his tongue to conceive, nor his heart to report what my dream was."

I dress up with a conscience
When I think you’ll be watching
I say all the right things
I don’t know what I mean

Am i
Am i
Getting through
Am i
Am i
Getting through

And now for a serious question:

Bear vs Shark....who would win?

1 of 101 facts you probably didn't know about me

It is extremely hard for me to befriend someone who is younger than me. I know that sounds trival and extremely pety of me but it's true. It always has been. I went to a private preschool/kindergarten/day care in Lawrence. They used to give out these evaluations of the kids every quarter to the parents to let them know how their child was behaving, learning, ect. Mine always said, "Tends to play with the older children more than those of her own age or younger." I've ALWAYS had older friends. I like to be around more mature people and use that to help me grow. It's so hard for me to be around people who are less mature than me. I tend to get very annoyed very quickly. It is RARE for me to find someone younger than me who is mature enough to not drive me nuts. Don't get me wrong, I do have 2 or 3 friends in their teens who could definitely pass for 20-somethings just by behavior alone but I know too many crazy 16-18 year olds who should be kept far, far away from me for fear that I might beat them.

That's right, my first update in months is about Val Kilmer

iTunes: "Online Songs" by Blink 182
I am: stagnant

I have decided to add Val Kilmer to my list of celebrities that I am determined to meet. My reasons why are simple:

1. Geniuses
2. The Ghost and the Darkness
3. "I'll be your huckleberry..."

Nuff said about that.

On a slightly less humorous note:
I have successfully found myself in a terrible situation in which no matter what I do, I am screwed and unfortunately the people who put me there could definitely care less (one might say they are "careless" haha). The empty and very shallow part of me wishes that they endure nothing less than 5 hours of listening to Thursday or worse...::dramatic music:: watching The Hulk back to back with every movie on my "Top Ten Worst Movies I Have Suffered Through" list. I think said punishment is well suited.

Responsibility? Psh!

iTunes: "Blood on the Ground" by Incubus
I am: the personifaction of wrath

"Quiet down before God,
be prayerful before him.
Don't bother with those who climb the ladder,
who elbow their way to the top.

Bridle your anger, trash your wrath,
cool your pipes—it only makes things worse.
Before long the crooks will be bankrupt;
God-investors will soon own the store."
-Psalm 37:7-9

My Prestige

In a manner of speaking let me show you my hands, palms forward, fingers splayed, and I will say to you (and mark this well): "Every word of this is true and not a facade by any means". Now I rotate my hands so that you may see their backs, and I say to you: "You have nothing to loose."
Finally, I tweak at the cuffs of my jacet to reveal my wrists, and I say to you: "After all, what would I have to gain by writing nothing but the truth?"

"Oh, beware, my lord, of jealousy!
It is the green-eyed monster which doth mock
The meat it feeds on....
...But jealous souls will not be answered so.
They are not ever jealous for the cause,
But jealous for they're jealous. It is a monster
Begot upon itself, born on itself."
-Othello Act III, iii and iv