Popping the bubble

After doing Lunch with Natalie and Hannah, I still feel sick. I'm just going to do what I do most of the time; put on my best facade and immerse myself in Kool-aid.

Yay for facades!

Short post

Song of the moment: "What if" by Creed
I am: not in the mood

I don't know if a lack of sleep is causing serious problems or what but I just can't seem to keep my mind on one subject.

Weeeeeird

Work was fun. Hehehe silly newbies...they have problems with everything. I think I could make millions by recording the stupid things they do and passing it off as a reality show.

Bumps in the night

Stuck in my head: "Tainted Love" by Soft Cell
I am: freakin out

It starts out to be a rockin night. You end up closing the theater faster then expected, you borrowed an awesome CD from one of the Assistant Managers, and you just read the funniest email on earth. Then you hear it...the scratching, the moaning, the chirping. THERE IS SOME KIND OF ANIMAL IN OUR ATTIC AND IT IS GOING TO EAT ME. SAVE ME!! Oh God, I can picture it now. It's probably some kind of hairy-mutant Daddy-Long-Legs. It's pissed because I killed its sister. I know it. Darn me and my incessant need to kill all bugs that come within 5 feet of me!

I guess Hannah is encountering the same problem tonight:

Nights like this are almost enough to make me want to move out, and get an apartment, where everything that is capable of making suspicious noises in the night is within sight of me. Before this night is over, I'll very likely spot a mylar balloon demon or a creepy tentacle demon on the ceiling again. I'm freaking myself out just sitting here, but at least I didn't make it worse by watching 2001: A Space Odyssey before bed.

Nice guys don't always finish last

Theme Music: "Nice guys finish last" by Green Day
I am: Shocked

If you don't know me you probably, don't realize that I try to go out of my way to help people. If I see someone, I know crying on the side of the road I'm going to walk over and ask if they need to talk. It's just something I do. Well, after church on Wednesday I noticed one of my fellow church mates running out of our usual hangout, crying. I followed her to her car and asked her what was going on. At first she was hesitant. She just shook her head a few times. Being the o' so very annoying person that I am, I pressed on to get her to open up. We only talked for about 10 minutes before she reached for her phone and said she needed to call someone. I left to give her some privacy.

I was shocked yesterday when she drove up to my work and handed me a "Thank You" card in which she apologized for being rude and thanked me for checking on her. I was really "wowed" by this. I mean, I do nice things all the time but no one really ever...gives me a card! They usually just blow it off as me just being me. Dude, it was so awesome!! I've covered people's shifts, bought people random gifts, and sat with people for HOURS while they cry their eyes out to me but I've NEVER gotten anything in return.

I really needed that card believe it or not (not in a material sense). See, a few days ago I was thinking that all this niceness was pointless because no one really seemed to notice or care. Now I know that people do want you to go the extra mile.

Believe it or not, I keep doubting that the card was meant for me. I mean someone else was out there for a good hour with her when I only spent 10 minutes with her. I really do hope that talking to me helped her though.

Way better than Ted and Bill's excellent adventure

Stuck in my head: "Ground on Down" by Ben Harper
I am: Rockin!

Today was excellent! I finished all of the chores, made my bed, and still had enough time to drop by Caveman Comics, Borders, Barns and Noble, and Merlin Books! How awesome is that? Sure I didn't buy anything at those places...but man, it was fun looking around. I'm sure the clerks just loved how I loitered around their stores for a hour. Tehehe.

Thanks to Justin, I have now acquired a taste for Ben Harper's music. I've been listening to "Ground on Down" all day. Something about that song just makes me want to get up and rock out!

Dude, I've been getting the greatest compliments lately!! A few days ago, some guy said I have the most awesome shirts and then today someone said that my eye make-up looked really great! There's nothing like a compliment to make you're day rock even more!!

Not only that but I'm almost finished with my little black journal! I have a whole year's worth of fun adventures in it!! I know that when Amanda read it she couldn't stop laughing. She said that when I die I have to leave it to her so that she can get it published. Yeah, it's really not that funny.

Take a hint people

I'm turning off my cell phone for a few days...maybe more. There are reasons but none interesting enough to share.

Well Bugger!

Theme Song: "Staring at the Sun" by Offspring
I am: waiting

So, I was driving home tonight (more like today) and I got this horrible feeling that maybe my life is just that; driving down James River Freeway listening to Incubus while packed into a lonely and dark car. Dude, it freaked me out. I started hyperventilating and screaming. Then I remembered that I now have the awesome ability to make pudding cookies and then realized that, that's all one really needs in life.

Good times...good times.

I haven't heard from Linzy in a while. I am beginning to worry. Usually she gives me a random call by now but nope. Nothin'. I might give her a call tomorrow and she what she's up to. I love her voice messages! They're almost as good as Hannah's.

"Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaura. [pause] yeah this is Linzy [pause] ::breath:: [pause] so give me a call [pause]. Yeah.”

I ought to leave a really long message on her voice mail just to annoy the heck out of her. Tehehe, there's nothing more entertaining then seeing Linzy annoyed.

I've decided that Wednesday is going to be my day. Yes, I have decided! Hannah doesn't know it but I will be invading her house for various reasons. One of which is to see this horrible monster that seems to live in her kitchen. The other so that she can calm me down after I have a mental break down.

On Wednesday, I will break out the super hero outfit and impress all!! "Boo yaw" and here's why: I'm really sick of the crap that's been going on lately with some of the people that I hang out with and it's going to stop one way or another. I'm taking control of the situation if it's the last thing I do. I'm sick of being ignored and given the cold shoulder. Believe it or not, I do exist!!! I’m sick of people conforming for the stupidest of reasons. WHY CAN’T YOU JUST REBEL! Darn all those who conform, darn them all! But, most of all, I’m sick of being treated like crap!!

I have the sudden urge to draw myself as a super hero. Yay for super heroes!!

Sleepy time

I am prepared for a 10 hour nap! I've worked my butt off all weekend and now I am prepare to either hang out with my peeps or just plop into bed. If someone doesn't call me quick they're going to have to wake me up. ::sigh:: I love my pillow.

I MUST NOT GIVE INTO THE SLEEP!!

Fudge!

Ack, today was just not my day.

This morning we were swamped by a hundred-some evil munchkins. I hate tiny children whose parents have no control over them. But it’s fine...that happens when you work at a movie theater. Then some projector brain-wrapped and the movie was stopped. Then we received a delivery from Regal, that I didn't enter it into the computer. Then when I was told to enter it, I asked about a dozen annoying questions and drove the rest of the managers nuts. THEN I thought I was supposed to leave at 7pm when I was REALLY supposed to leave at 6pm. To make everything 10 times worse I rang up an order so horribly wrong that one of the managers was going nuts trying to figure out what I had done. When she called to tell me what I had done all I wanted to do was apologize a million times but the few “I’m sorry-s” that I got out didn’t seem to help.

Let’s just say that the word "fudge" was used a lot today. Its days like this that make me feel like crap all the time. Dude, I feel so incompetent. Uck.

READY

Currently Playing: Moonlight Sonata
I am: Ready

The employee meeting is Thur. and I am all set! I can't wait! I have this awesome outfit picked out (gosh I hope they let me wear it). It's this really cute black tank with my flame comfy pants and then a white-collar shirt to go over the tank. Then to top it all off I have this uber cute tie! I think I just spent 15 mins looking for my comfy pants. I went running around the house screaming

"COMFY PANTS COME BACK TO ME!"

You must understand that I cannot live without those pants!! THEY ARE THE ESSENCE OF COMFY!

Just paint me pink and call me "Ducky"

Everything seems to be moving in slow motion now and not in a good way.

To start things off I think that Ashley and I’s friendship is sinking into the ground like a Hummer in Egyptian quicksand. We aren’t returning each other’s calls, we haven’t hung out in what feels like a year, and IT SUCKS! I’m highly ticked because Ashley rocks my face off and she’s my Best Friend and privy to information that could be useful in blackmailing me (haha…no, but really she could destroy me). I have a plan though. I’m going to salvage it by calling her at least three times this week and making conversation with her even if that conversation has to be about soured milk! Then next week I will email her everyday until she has had her fill of me. It will be marvelous.

Then church pretty much blew my mind. I had one of those horrible revelations right after the alter call had finished. I have the worst timing when it comes to revelations.

Haha, all you cat haters will be glad to hear that I almost ran over a feline the other night. It scared the living crap out of me. I was on the phone to...only-God-knows-who…when I see these two yellow eyes pop out of nowhere in front of my car. I flipped out and did one of those crazy swerves, that you only see in the movies, just in time to miss the stupid cat. I think I actually screamed into the phone. I hope that person’s eardrums are ok. At least I got some amusement out of the experience.

On a final “bad day” note:

I think I’ve lost something but I’m not quite sure what.

and when I say “lost” I mean in a metaphorical way.

It’s weird. I can feel myself becoming more and more dull by the second. Blah.

I've got to stop talking in my sleep

I think Ashley just called me but I'm not sure if that was a dream or what. Look, I went to bed at like 3:30 (yay for closing shifts!)! I remember hearing the Scooby Doo theme song (my ring tone) and talking to someone who sounded a lot like Ashley. I don't even know what we talked about. Wow, that's pretty bad.

I hung out with Nat and Hannah the other night and I brought along my pretty red journal to make notes of interesting events. I thought I'd share a few of the notes I made:

8:23 pm
Natalie warns me of the state her room is in. I am fearful to enter. I may faint. I think I should make her a sign that says "Insert Disclaimer here" for above her door.

8:24 pm
Oh the horrors!

8:37 pm
Nat and I have drawn attention to Springfield's ant problem. Our plans are to decrease the population by feeding them concentrated Mountain Dew. Only she and I know it's awesome killing power.

8:53 pm
Discovered that Hannah doesn't know how to cook Toast. I will pray for her soul.

8:56 pm
My first child will be named "The Cheat" (not to be confused with "The Hannah") and his/her first word shall be "Douglas."

9:15 pm
The word "Addendum" has been used too much. I have plans to approach an employee tomorrow and say "An Addendum to my list before..."
A fight has broken out between the friends. They claim that their e-boyfriend is e-cheating. This is something to post about in my blog.

9:20 pm
The group is restless. Somehow, I got sucked into driving them all to Barns and Noble. Hahaha, I will make them listen to Cadet.

9:30 pm
Almost smash Hannah's hand in the car window. Sadly funny.

Laura's Fury

I must say that I have never been so pissed off in my entire life.

I’m pretty sure that all my friends know better than to talk down to me not because they respect me but because they know how bad my temper is and fear my fury. Just ask Tamila or even Natalie. In fact, Ashley knows better then most because she and I recently had it out a month or two ago when we had a little spat.

I believe the last time someone talked down to me; I looked them straight in the eye and in the coldest tone ever said,

“Excuse me! Do not take that tone with me! If you have a problem I suggest you get over it and quick.”

(This caught the person off guard because I’m usually pretty nice and cheery.) Ha ha, the look on their face was priceless.

Tonight was the first time that I was talked down to and somehow managed to bite my tongue instead of breaking loose. I just can’t stand it when people take that tone with you as if you were three or just plain stupid! No one has the right to treat me like that!! I’m a person so talk to me as if I were one! I’m sorry if you think that you have the right to degrade people. You really don’t! I don’t care whom you are but if you disrespect I will not stand for it.

The ONLY reason I did not tear into this person is because there were several people around and it was just not worth the effort. I’m so ticked about it though.

I was so mad that I ended up not saying anything until I reached Becca who cooled me down a bit.

Thank GOD FOR BECCA.

A new All Time Low

Theme Music: "Barlow Girl" by [SuperChick]
I am: in a somewhat Comatose state

It’s bad enough that I’m a girl who spends ¼ of her paycheck on PS2 games but last night, or should I say this morning I became one of the saddest girls on earth.

So after I figured out that it is impossible to beat Final Fantasy X in 4 hours, I attempted to go to sleep. It was at 4:30am that I hit this “all time low.”

There I was lying in bed trying to decide if I wanted to invest in a set of Final Fantasy X action figures or even buy FFX t-shirt.

When I realized that I was becoming some sort of FF geek I started to freak out. Memories of Linzy spending hours on her PS1, dehydrated with massive bags under her eyes, as she tried to beat FF IX, flashed through my mind. Those were some good times. Linzy and I…sitting around the TV…. screaming because she kept dying during a battle. Good times…I AM NOT OBSESSED DARN IT! I can stop playing anytime I want to. I just want to finish the game first.

::sigh:: you know you’re obsessed when you end up screaming at inanimate objects. I was so frustrated with how long it was taking me to beat each level that I ended up shouting, “Stop crying Yuna [FFX character]! Ya FREAK OF NATURE!! JUST SHUT UP AN USE THE DARN AEON TO BEAT SIN!” or “Be a man Tidus! RUN AWAY!!”

It’s gotten to the point where I think about game strategies constantly. After church when all the college people had gotten together, my mind just kept wondering (which I had plenty of time to do since I was HORRIBLE BORED!!!). I kept thinking about how I need to finish those last levels in Price of Persia and how I wasn’t sure if I saved my game last time I played it (uck, I don’t think I did).

To top everything off, there is some kind of freaky dog ghost running around our house. I saw it for the first time last night as I was walking up the stairs. No joke; it looked like the evil dog from Harry Potter: POA!! I started flipping out!!!! Then I realized it was 1am and I was over exhausted. Then today I heading out the back door and something ran by me. The rational side of me would just say that it was one of the dogs but both of them were already outside. I’m going to guess that Hannah’s tentacle ghost has somehow made its way over here (lol).

Dude, I think I just heard something clawing at the ceiling and I’m pretty sure that it wasn’t the usual ghost that haunts my room. Darn you Hannah! I know this is your fault!

Disgrace

So it's 4am and I've come to the conclusion that I will not be able to beat Final Fantasy X tonight.

I KNOW I CAN BEAT THIS SUCKER. I just need a good 24 hours more!

I've got like 10 levels left (out of 27).
It's just not humanly possible to beat this game in one night. I'm sorry but it's not.

Just because You can't beat Final Fantasy X in 5 hours doesn't make you any less of a human being

Ack, I can't believe this. I've been playing Final Fantasy X for 5 hours and I'm only half way through! This is crazy! I’ve never been so obsessed with a game in my life! At this point, I just want to attack Yuna (character). Can I do that? Attack my own teammate? Hmmm.

I’m so proud of myself. I’m developing “gamer blisters.” Yay!!!

Hannah's Voicemails

Theme song: "Call me, beep me" -Kim Possible Theme Song
I am: highly entertained

Therefore, I was checking my voicemail today and found that Hannah had left not only one, but TWO messages. What’s funny is that, that sort of thing USUALLY annoys the heck out of me but when it’s Hannah then it’s ok and here’s why….

First message:

“Hi Laura, [dramatic pause] it’s Hannah [emphasis on the name ‘Hannah’] not Natalie. I know the caller ID says Natalie but [drawn out ‘but’] I’m just using her phone… really it’s me….”

Second message:

“Hi Laura [her usually pause here] it’s Hannah [her usual emphasis on her own name]…this time your caller ID will say Hannah and not Natalie because I am using my own phone. Sorry about the confusion…”

There is just something so great about hearing Hannah say “Hi Laura!” I can’t explain it. It makes me laugh every time.

So as if it wasn’t embarrassing enough, I have decided to tell the story to the entire internet. What can I say? I have no shame left.

So today, I wore this really cute brown top right? Well it happened to be unusually hot in the theater today and I practically sweat through the thing because it was so heavy. Sadly, I had no idea. So there I was…walking around all day with these massive blotches of sweat on my shirt and I didn’t even find out until I went to the rest room to check my hair! Uck, that is just so disgusting! I was dreadfully embarrassed when I found out. I just went about my day, acting as if everything was fine, which it wasn’t. I was completely freaking out about it. I wanted to run and hide under a rock.. I was tempted to take off my shirt and run away quickly but I figured that it is better to be sweaty and clothes than sweaty and topless…uck.

One too many Harry Potter fans

Theme Music: "Under Pressure" by Queen
I am: SICK OF THE STUPID HARRY POTTER GEEKS

After today, I can safely say that I hate all Harry Potter fans…ALL OF THEM.

This morning everything was fine. Lori and I took an exciting trip to the bank and I almost put a dent in my car from a box of quarters (those suckers are heavy!). I mean, sure we had people lined up outside the doors at 8:15 for the 10am showing of HP3 but nothing even close to the crowds on opening day of LOTR: ROTK. I figured that since the “first showing” crowds weren’t so bad that the rest of the day would blow by like a soft summer breeze. The 10am and 10:30 am showings went over well, as expected. We weren’t slammed yet we had enough business to be making a profit. Then the 12s came…and boy did I learn not to judge a day by its opening crowds!
First off, one of our concessionists couldn’t come in (and eventually quit…long story) then someone got the bright idea to stop popping. As you can imagine we almost ran out of popcorn. I had never been so mad in my life. A movie theater just can run without popcorn! It’s sadistic! My head almost literally exploded when I heard that someone had decided to say to some of the newbies, “We have enough popcorn for today.” After I threaded to write some people up, I cooled off in the office (screaming really does make everything better) until about the 5/6pm round when we got beat to death. We had four registers open in concession and every one of them had a line to the box office. Sure, we had a runner for every register yet that made no impact on the lines!! It was crazy. I felt so bad for the closing managers that I ended up staying and extra 2 hours just to help stock.

The day wouldn’t have been so bad if the Harry Potter fans weren’t so annoying and/or mean. They kept asking the stupidest of questions and complaining about sound problems when there weren’t any.

Craving God

Theme music: "Spoon" By Cadet
I am: Renewed, Energized, And Happier

"my heart is craving a little revelation
Oh so much sweeter than my imagination
I’m telling my heart catch the sunlight with a spoon
I’ve only tasted your reflection off the moon
My heart is moved by a higher expectation
Of something sweeter than all of creation
Every time I blink you'll see it
May I have one glimpse of you?
Every time I breathe you'll hear it
May I have one word from you"

I open this post with a few words from one of my favorite Christian bands, Cadet, because they summed up this entire night for me.

I ended up deciding to go to the Youth/College group tonight because God is so much more important than any petty problems in my life. I really thought the night was going to suck for various reasons but as soon as Ray (pastor) started talking everything just faded away. I wasn’t thinking about stressful events of how I would deal with upcoming conflicts, it was just the words and I. He talked about how people sometimes seem to loose their passion for church and how we can avoid such a thing by exploring what God has to offer us. It was awesome.

I made the right choice by going because when I left I felt ten times better then I did when I came in.

God rocks, you guys!!

Jogging at 5am

I went jogging this morning. After I had the worst dream of my life, I decided that sleep was no longer an option and I needed to get some air. It was really...nice. It was like I was drifting off into another state of mind. Suddenly everything was 10 times clearer. All the incubus songs made sense! But the best part was that there was no drama, no worries, no pain, no nothing; just me and the road.

::sigh::

I ran for a good hour before I realized that I needed to get home. Sadly, the second I walked in the door I came back to reality. All my problems hit me like a sack of potatoes. It was fun while it lasted.

I wish I could run all day.

Another night of Self-revelation

Theme music: "dateless losers" By Reel Big Fish
I am: Queasy

Ugh, my stomach hurts. It’s literally doing flips within my body. I haven’t felt this nauseous since I was forced to go on Wildfire with Ashley and her two F.E.S.-es (foreign Exchange Students). That was a day of excitement lol.

donde esta mi familia! -a little inside joke for ya there, Ashley.

Nat and I were going to have this awesome, “Girl’s night out” thing tonight but it turned out to be a bust so we hung out with this guy from my church college group, Jared, instead. It was a lot of fun. We took him to the Mud House and taught him E.R.S….the hard /Tamila way MUHAHAHA. We didn’t exactly tell him the rules. We made him sit there and catch on to the game. HAHA! It was a fun filled night. Tomorrow we plan on taking him shopping with us downtown. There’s nothing like hanging out with friends and shopping!

So, after reading Hannah’s most recent post I have decided that I will NEVER spend the night at her house. Sorry Hannah, but the thought of being eaten by an unknown spider-like monster just isn't appealing to me.

Speaking of sleeping or lack-there-of, the past few nights I’ve been having the weirdest dreams. I always end up waking up in a cold sweat at 3am. I’d love to describe the dream to you all but unfortunately I only remember the feeling of intense fear as I leapt out of bed. I haven’t had to deal with dreams like this in a long time. I wonder what my subconscious is trying to tell me. ::shrugs shoulders:: eh. Who knows?

Spelling errors and that sort of thing

I hate to disappoint my audience but I do have the ability to spell (lol). I have gone back only a few posts to change some HORRIBLY spelled words. I am ashamed…I mean seriously! I’m educated!!! I can’t believe I spelled “therefore” w/o an “e” like 3 times!! It’s a massive pet-peeve of mine is to see people butcher words and look what I’m doing…

::bows head in shame::

Anyway, I’ve decided that from now on I will go back over my posts and read them instead of just posting right after I write them. Sorry about the confusion folks.

The cat lady of Guadalupe

In light of new evidence, I have decided to become a cat lady or maybe a nun, probably cat lady because the name just rolls off your tongue.

I shall buy 20 cats by the time I am 30 and develop and unnatural love for them, like most cat ladies. It shall be quite grand.

I can see it now....my video games, the cats, and me. I can smell the cat litter now. I guess the only problem would be my slight fear of large numbers of cats. Hmmm, I can always get over that.

::insert cursing here::

Theme music: "Break stuff"
I am: highly depressed

Today has been awful! First off, I find out that there is a tear in the middle of my contact and therefore I can't wear them until I see the eye doctor (which could be a week or so from now). Then I find out that I was supposed to work so I had to blow off plans to watch Samurai Jack with some people from church! Then, I came into work 3 hours late (something I have NEVER done). It was horrible. Then to top it all off, I tried to remove the contact from my left eye and somehow seriously poked the heck out of my eye!!

Oh...yeah and someone told me that I looked better with my glasses. Yay...